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May 10th, 2006: Feeling Probed, among other things.


First off, thank you for all the wonderful unexpected comments (which will be returned soon). I feel so loved.

I got a pap smear today. What an intrusive exam, jeez. It wasn’t my first one, but I felt like I was being assaulted this time. My last pap was with a male doctor that was much more gentle. I always tell them - send up a flare before you start shoving things! Sorry to get descriptive but my grown ladies will know what I mean. Which sex do you prefer to do those exams? I feel uncomfortable either way, but yeah.

 I also managed to talk to someone about getting health insurance — finally. I had my paperwork ready but being 20 (even with my birthday in a month) requires a parent.  Cross your fingers, because medical bills can really be a pain.

Before my appointment I also spoke to the most delightful woman; she has to be the nicest person in that whole hospital. She was supposed to ask me questions about my sexual activity and all that, but it quickly became a gab session. We talked about alot of things, and then we spoke out the sisters we’d lost. She was the second youngest of nine children, and in her life had to bury seven of them. I can’t even imagine the pain, but the way she spoke about it was almost inspiring.

“He’s too wise to make a mistake,” she said. “I spent so many years asking God why - why her, why now - everytime I lost someone, and then as I got older I realized God doesn’t just want thorns, he wants roses too.”

It was just…wow - her strength was crazy. I felt alot better talking to her about Imani, and that’s something I haven’t done in a while. I figure it would happen, as this is her month (her birthday & death in this month). I think that’s why my blood pressure went up from last month. Now I just need to will myself to go and visit her. I spend too much time being afraid of how I’ll react when I get there that I always chicken out. But I owe it to her to at least see her on her birthday. Let’s hope this year will be better.

I had pictures to post but I also had blood drawn and some new doctor was practicing on me and couldn’t find the vein. Not cool - it doesn’t take much for my skin to react to things. Just kind of killed the whole let me sit on the computer for 34 hours mood.

: Kenzie is back! - XXX, like I said before you need to get with that, because the members rock and so does she - Chelsea, Alexis, Reese

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8 Responses to “Feeling Probed, among other things.”


  1. Julia on May 10th, 2006 at 6:13 pm

    yeah, for some reason, my last pap smear was a little more painful then the last one. I’ve only ever had female gyno’s, however, not by choice - I’ve never had the chance to have a male one. I think i don’t mind either way.

  2. Kay on May 11th, 2006 at 12:07 am

    I’ve only had a female obgyn but it was still uncomfortable b/c I was scared to death….good luck on getting health insurance & sorry about your daughter….on another note, your site is very cute, it looks so clean & professional….Laterz….

  3. Kenzie on May 12th, 2006 at 4:40 pm

    Aww, thank you for the plug sweetie

    I’ve never had a pap done. If I did though, I’d rather have a robot do it than a human.

  4. Lynn on May 14th, 2006 at 5:28 am

    Ugh, I hate those exams, but I think I would still prefer a female doctor. The ones I had so far were ok. I just hate it when doctors, especially dentists, just do anything to me without telling me first what it is they will be doing. I’m always like “Ok, now.. what’s that thing that looks like a giant eyelash curler for?!?!?!”.

  5. Tracy on May 14th, 2006 at 5:47 am

    I’m confused… what’s pap smear?
    luckily it never happened to me that someone couldn’t find the vein - I wouldn’t like that.

  6. Dee on May 14th, 2006 at 12:12 pm

    Hey sweetface As far as pelvic exams go, I don’t exactly hate them, but it’s not like I actually enjoy someone diggin all around in there lol. But I definitely know that I prefer a female GYN .. I dunno why, I just feel more secure. And that is most definitely a beautiful quote; I know that she has to have an unimaginable amount of strength to bury seven siblings … it’s gotta be hard. I wish you much luck this year, hopefully you’ll be able to pull strength to go and visit her.

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