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June 5th, 2006: Happy June.


Wow, June already - my birthday month, and its been nothing but smuggy the past few days. And like geminis do, I’m going through mood swings. Not angry/mad; more like social/anti-social. I’ve been irritable too . I hate going through it and I will forever blame it on the weather, but I always manage to isolate myself and then feel lonely. Has that ever happened to you?

Wierd, I know! Anyway, I’m determined to pull myself out of it. It is, afterall, this is supposed to be a happy time. Well at least I think so!

Hunter HawkNot much else has been happening, other than helping my sister with her huge final project. I’m talkin’ project boards, markers, stencils, construction paper, and a 10 page essay to top it off. Luckily, we’ve been blessed to have a teacher for a grandmother - a good one at that - who will always help with proof reading and research. So of course, I hoofed it over to Staples to help my sis get supplies and as goofy as it sounds, it made me want to go back to school even more. That’s it — I said it. I like new supplies. I like fancy pens, and dammit I want to go back!  Maybe It wouldn’t have been so bad if I had actually chosen to leave. But I didn’t, and even though everyone tells me to stop blaming myself, it’s my fault. I pushed myself after highschool when I obviously needed a break, and that’s all there is to it. Maybe it’s more than school; maybe it’s just when you look at your situation and realize that 4 years earlier you had no intention of being where you are now.

If it wasn’t for him I don’t know what I would do. Just as I was strolling down one isle, brooding about things that were just really making me depressed, he came up to me and hugged me, and told me that things will be ok; that situations have a way of working themselves out. I’m sure maybe it was written all over my face, but it feels good to be with someone who’s actually in tune with how you’re feeling, and will do whatever they can to make you feel secure and just a little more sane, even when it means saying the simplest thing.

On a final note:

 

Cornyflakes!
he’s a trouble maker, but i him.

 

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6 Responses to “Happy June.”


  1. Stephanii on June 5th, 2006 at 10:43 am

    Awww, cute cat. ♥

    June, where I’m at, has been pretty hot. I’m enjoying it though. I don’t really think it’s been so much as hot, but really breezy weather. Still, I like it.

    That’s actually good that you have a desire to go back to school. I think when I graduate high school, I’m going to take a year off before I go to college. I watched my brother go right into college and he was treating it like high school. So, I kind of learned from him.

  2. JC on June 5th, 2006 at 2:01 pm

    Aw Dee. Whatever it is you are going through, it’ll work itself out. I believe you’re the kind of person who can set herself back on the path when she deviates a little.

  3. Savannah on June 5th, 2006 at 8:44 pm

    I am the exact same way. I love school supplies, haha. How nerdy does that sound? Oh well, it is one of my favourite shopping sprees to go on, rofl. You know, I strayed from the path I always thought I would take too. I was always on the honour roll in high school and everyone, including myself, thought I would graduate early and start university early. Here I am now though, a couple years LATE, but I think it is exactly what I needed. I am so much more focused than I was before and completely motivated to be successful in whatever I choose to do. I don’t think many people end up doing what they planned to do with their lives, at least not according to the plan. Whatever your goal is though, you will reach it one way or another, there is no doubt about that. You know what you want and you will get it. It is nice that there is someone who so obviously believes in you too, along with many other people I am sure

  4. Noreen on June 5th, 2006 at 10:40 pm

    Hey girlie! First time commenter and I’m already in love with you. There’s something about the way you write in general that’s just really really cool. And awww lookie @ these winged smilies! Anyhow, WOW June already! Time needs to stop for justttttt a little bit…a quarter of my summer break is gone, booooooooo. Speaking of school, even I miss those fun projects…we used to do a lot of them in high school. Now it’s all papers papers papers and oh more papers.

    That’s a super cute cat you have there, missy.

  5. shereena on June 5th, 2006 at 11:00 pm

    Ha! They are all trouble makers but we still love them You know.. I’m not too aware of your situation w/ school but I’ll tell you this much - if you want something for yourself don’t let anything hold you back. And it can prove to be beneficial too. You have a good heart, you deserve it. And I’m glad that your love was able to understand without words exactly how you felt. It sounds like he really cares about you and that’s a wonderful thing Love.

  6. anne on June 7th, 2006 at 11:26 pm

    aww.. he’s such a honey… i have a cat myself… he pees everywhere but i love him to death…..

    maybe you’re feelng like that coz your birthday comin up… the jitters, the anticipation…. have fun with him!


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