January 21st, 2007: & Baby I Just Melt Away


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I’ve had an awesome day with my love today. An especially lovely day. I don’t know. He makes me glow; everytime he tells me I’m beautiful, or that he loves me it’s like I’m hearing it for the first time.

I thought ‘telling’ someone would make the flutters subside, but they’re still as strong as ever. Heh, this boy has me hook, line, and sinker. 

January 9th, 2007: New Year’s Molotov Coctail (in a shot glass).


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To me New Year’s Resolutions aren’t really that useful.

It’s easy to make promises, but twelve months is a long way from now, and your whole life can change in an instant, let alone in a year’s time. So to me it seems a little silly to try and tell yourself where you’ll be in your life a year from now, when the only thing guaranteed is that nothing in life stays the same.

Instead I just use it as a marker of time for reflection, and not an attempt to look ahead. What have I learned, what have I changed about myself, how have I grown? Am I the same Darlene from January 1, 2006? It’s true; many things look clearer in hindsight, and the only thing I really want to do is to continue to grow as a person, and to continue to venture into things I hadn’t before. To express myself and open up in ways that has become foreign and scary – I very often internalize my problems instead of opening up to the people who want to be there for me, and it’s been going on for so long that it’s a real challenge for me to do that. With all the other facets of my life I’ll just have to wing it – make my ‘resolutions’ (for lack of a better word) when the situation calls for it. I hope that on the approach of 2008 I will be a better, more peaceful and more focused person.

As for the ‘celebration’ part of the holiday, my Christmas was grand – did the whole family thing, and got a couple of nice gifts including clothes, an electric Sudoku game (score! ) and this:

my watch ring!

This gorgeous watch ring – so cute!

The usual group came together to count down to 07. Two days prior I gasped in fear when Tony bounded into my house with this chemical in his hand.

Grave’s Grain Alcohol.

I didn’t know what it was either. If you thought this was bad, it has nothing on the sheer strength of this alcohol he left in my freezer. 190 proof, 95% alcohol. He stood there, expecting the worse from me as I inspected the bottle. He knew I was going to bitch, but I guess he’s a glutton for punishment. Time and time again I reiterate: I have no interest in getting a full nights worth of inebriation in one shot. It’s ridiculous. I was tempted to ask if it was unleaded but I refrained. No one would go near that thing. Hell, it’s still in my freezer.

I may give it to someone so they can use it for what it must have been made for – Molotov Coctails. They can do that off in the distance somewhere; I don’t think I’m wrong for assuming that’s the only way I’ll get rid of it.

 

Jenga!

We drank Patron and played drunken Jenga.  I can’t even begin to get into the antics that ensued, so I won’t. We’re a rowdy lot. I got a set of shot glasses from Crate & Barrel for the next time we play.

 

blown glass shot glasses

 

Ah, the fun. Will be taking a break from the fun stuff to refocus my attention to something I have in the works for the spring. The New Year looks bright and full of opportunity, which is why this update is quite late – I won’t jinx myself by saying anything but hopefully all the work I’ve been doing will pay off.
 

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